2.5 HOURS!

So much for my dream of sleeping in this morning... my day started earlier than normal - much earlier.

I woke around 2.50 to hear G making some noises and start to grizzle. I thought I'd try to usual settle of putting her dummy back in and laying her back down (was standing up at the side of the cot by the time I went in)

2 mins later, if that, I was back in again to try to cuddle approach - cuddle, dummy back in, lay down

A few minutes later back in again where she pulls out her dummy and says "boo" quite dramatically meaning "feed me and feed me now" She hasn't had a feed overnight in MONTHS

So... cuddles in our bed and a feed. Half an hour passes and I think she's dozing off so up we get again and trek back to put her in bed again

After each visit to her I've then had to go to the loo - psychosomatic yeah but wouldn't be an issue if I was asleep! LOL

Trek off to the loo and by the time I get there she is crying again. Not just a little whimper but full blown "I want my mummy and I want her now" crying

On and off until about 4 when I give up and take her out to the lounge, turn the light on and we have a "chat" She is still miserable but perks up a little when she finds some books to read

Keeps demanding "boo"... I keep refusing as I'm tender and not used to night feeds anymore

I end up in tears and am sobbing while SMSing hubby to have some company in my misery. She just looks at me and goes back to reading then demands a tissue when I get some for myself

Keep trying all sorts of things and end up deciding to try some Demazin. Sure, not really recommended for under 2's these days but she's had it before on prescription and I figure it might help her to settle. She'd already had Bonjella, nappy change, lots of cuddles, "boo" etc etc

Back to bed after Demazin and she gets more "boo" I finally notice that she's really dozy and put her back to bed..... Its now 5.15

Crawl back to bed myself and have to unwind. Finally sleep. Wake to children and scrabble to find phone to check time... 7.20. Woohoo - I got a total of about 5 hours sleep

To say I'm exhausted today is an understatement. Thankfully any moment now daddy should walk through the door and I can go and hide under a rock... for an hour until my MW appt

I am now feeling really worried about how I'm going to cope with 3 kids. If I had a husband who was at home it wouldn't be such an issue but knowing that I'll basically be a single mum from the start is really worrying me now. One of the main reasons for my total melt down in the early hours of this morning